Ghost

I have always taken time to come out of my shell. Never the outgoing one. Not the one to air my opinions or voice a feeling. This is my downfall. Sending tiny hints that no one will guess. Keep it all to myself. Never admitting when I need help. Locking up my heart so tight…

Please help

I’ve been putting out subtle hints. Silent screams. I am not okay. I feel nothing. Empty. Lost. Is anyone listening? Does anyone care? Who do I go to when all the lights go Out? Going for drives. Getting lost. On purpose. Standing outside in a storm. Walking on the edge of cliff. Wondering about death….

Reckless Behaviour

I’m going to talk about sex… in a minute. There are many reasons as to why i behave recklessly, on occasion. You think, ‘ how can you do that when you say you have anxiety.’ ‘you’re not that type of person, you’d never do that.’ To which I say, stop underestimating me and fuck you…

Everyone Secretly Hates Me: It’s An Anxeity Thing

I feel like the people who say they’re my friends are not my friends. I go through this phase a lot. No one is talking to me . If I talk to them I’m bothering them. I’m a hassle to talk to. A burden. Not good enough. They don’t want to do anything with me….

I’ll step aside; your happiness means more than mine

After all this time of being on my own of saying I’m only thinking of myself I will be selfish. I have been lying to myself. You see it’s come to my attention that I will always step aside when it comes to somone else’s happiness. Perhaps that is why I believe I am never…

Give Me Attention Or I’ll Die

I am an attention seeker. I want you to pay attention to me. I want you to like my selfies. I want you to think about me. I want you to remember me. I want you to want to talk to me. But above all else, I need you to want to do all of…

I Hated My Job

My job is not important. It does not make me feel valued. It does not benefit the lives of anyone else. My job is minimal. Some of the things we’re asked to do seems far fetched for a role so useless. Things like working alone past midnight. Taking two whole cadges worth of rubbish outside…

The Problem With Zero Hour Contracts

There’s a huge problem out in the world of work and its called a zero hour contract, closely followed by minimum hour contracts such as a 4 hour week. Hi there, I’ve done both. They both equally suck. Fair enough at least you’re guaranteed one shift a week with a 4 hour contract but the…

A List Of Me By Me

I am: stubborn unbiased, cant argue, cant defend. Too introverted, a loner. Overweight. Forgetful. Easily forgotten. Quiet. Doesn’t stand out. Takes too long to open up. Bad at communicating. Afraid to do new things. Cant do small talk. Blunt. Bad at interviews. Too different, doesn’t fit in. Stuck in my own routine. Judgemental. Unmotivated. Lazy….